The Price of Pain

No one deliberately seizes the opportunity to experience a season of pain. It generally occurs due to circumstances beyond your control. Often a mirage of emotions accompany those decumbant points in your life, and it's almost impossible to bring light to your situation. Not because you don't want to, more often it's because you are in complete denial. To be labeled as mentally challenged has a definite impact on your psyche. To wear the burden of life on your shoulders is one thing, but to assume that same task mentally is totally debilitating. It is a world of isolation and turmoil. Your mindset to isolate is that of self rejuvenation, however the reality is more like self annihilation. It places you in an ongoing state of detachment. It is an uncomfortable conversation to have with someone who has no clue of the path you walk. I wouldn't wish this category of suffering on my worst enemy. Your support system is a small cluster of family and friends. On occasion you may have to seek professional guidance for those tough terrains. This has no bearing on your faith walk. You can be a devout Christian. No one is immune to the tactlessness of this condition. There will be times when the last thing on your mind is a posture of prayer. And even though you know God is the only one who can save you, He will be placed on the back burner.  Not because you want Him to, but your level of desire for Him is overridden by your mental despair. So in the future try to be more understanding when someone you know acts indifferent. You have no idea of the depth of the situation they may be tackling. For those of you suffering in silence let me leave you with a word. 

(1Peter 5:6-7) 

Humble yourselves, therefore, under Gods mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 

Lady 4.0 

How Faith Works

If you're like me, you attempt to live your life as per God's instruction. Mind you that
isn't always as easy as it may seem. For many of us we are taught the difference
between right and wrong at an early age. However, even with parental supervision we
didn't always get it right. None the less our parents never lost faith in us and continued
to love us despite our many blunders. The dictionary defines faith as "belief that is not
based on proof." So, essentially that equates to our parents believing that even though
our actions in the past may have been less than forthcoming, we still had promise.

Believe it or not, God has the same viewpoint. If he had not do you actually think
he would have given his greatest sacrifice for you? A parent will do anything in
their power to protect the well being of their children. According to scripture

John 3:16 ~ For God so loved the world, that he gave his only son, that whoever
believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life

That means God made a conscious decision to allow his only child to endure the brunt

of the most unthinkable act, in order, that you may be saved from a life of damnation. 

I don't know about you, but that is faith if I ever saw it. So for those of you who lose

faith in God because life does not live up to your expectations, keep in mind, not once

did he say becoming a Christian would void your life of any obstacles. 

Like your maternal parents even though you continue to cruise through life one 

mistake at a time, God still trusts you will learn to have faith in his ability to heal 

your brokenness. We've all been hurt, shamed, and left to feel worthless with no 

hope of resurrection. I implore you to take a glimpse past your pain.

Matthew 21:22 ~ And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith

Be Blessed,

Lady 4.0

What Are You Afraid Of?

Sometimes in life we are so focused on the perception others have of us, we forget about our own identity. Your past failures are just a small component of who you truly are as an individual. The turmoil some of us deal with in regards to our past keeps us stifled. The bitterness if not acknowledged will eat away at your soul. This causes us to feel empty and withdrawn from the reality of our everyday lives.  At no point did God ever say becoming a Christian would be uncomplicated. Rely on the authenticity of Gods word. According to 

Exodus 14:14 : The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent

So even when it seems God is not present, He is firmly engaged in your situation. Your happiness and well being is extremely important to him. 

Proverbs 14:13 : Even in laughter the heart may ache, and the end of joy may be grief

This simply means there are times when you will have to laugh through the pain, in order to grasp the joy of healing. My grandmother once told me pain is your bodies way of expelling unwanted toxins. This doesn't just mean physical pain, it could also be mental or emotional pain. For instance that debilitating relationship you continue to carry, or the career you no longer enjoy, or that dreadful childhood secret that holds you hostage. Regardless of your current situation, remember as long as you are afraid to acknowledge it, it will continue to haunt you. So jump in with both feet and declare this thing be released. 

1Peter 2:21 : For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps

Be Blessed,

Lady 4.0 

Lack of Faith Leads to Worry

Our lives can be a series of ups and downs, and if we are not careful we can sometimes trade in our faith for a bucket of doubt. Every situation that arises in our lives is not necessarily initiated by the devil. A few of the trials we encounter are actually self created. There are times when we allow people and things to occupy the space and time that was designated specifically for God. When we lose our connection with God we panic when we do hear His reply in response to our restlessness. We feel He has abandoned us, and left us to weather the storm on our own. The truth of the matter is God is still there and He is still speaking. We have lost the ability to hear His voice, because the other outside influences have drowned him out. According to 

Matthew 6:34  ~ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

We worry to the point of becoming frantic, because we can not visually see a resolution to the issue at hand. Our paranoia overrides our ability to think logically, and we become impatient. Without knowing it we have set ourselves up for the big let down, which again is due to our own volition. 

Romans 1:28 ~ And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done 

So make no mistake when we do not have faith in God's ability to bring us out of our situations, He will sometimes place us in a posture of total submission. It is then that we realize the only answer to our dilemma is to wait for God's instruction. 

Be Blessed,

Lady 4.0 

 

Timing

My melancholy mood is the result of the non-existent faith I have

in myself, but how can that be when I have faith in you

My thoughts are born from unparalleled visions of greatness, but

the reality is my doubt trumps the potential I see in myself

So much so that every decision I make is based on the residual

fumes from someone else’s dream

My thoughts are inconsistent and my needs are nonexistent because

I fade into the backdrop of society

No longer visible by freedom but bound by the ties of uncertainty

It is lonely in here with no one to talk to but you already know that

Tension mounts and a sigh escapes because I am not prepared to lead

but you beg to differ (Stand Tall) you say, (Hold Your Head High)

you say because your time of rebirth is almost near

Do not lose sight of the promises I have made for they alone should be

enough to give you strength

Step into your purpose my child (Own It) (Live It) (Be It) for I have

destined you for a time such as this

Do not make the mistake of treating the uncommon as though it

were not

Remember this journey is less about you and more about my will

for you

So do not be afraid for I am the rock on which you stand

Be Blessed,

Lady 4.0

Then and Now

I am oblivious to my surroundings as digest this silence

It satisfies the hunger I have to be different

I have conversations with myself and often reminisce 
back to a time when my thoughts spoke to your spirit
and we became one

Now we drift silently apart yet still together with no 
real perception of time

We circle the answer but never really raise the question

When reality sets in we are two thoughts apart and three
words shy of making this thing official

Our gaze turns into a lifetime of memories and the beginning
of a new chapter has begun

Be Blessed,
Lady 4.0

What Seems Normal

We are often caught off guard by the behaviors we exhibit. Subconsciously we blindly accept false truths as a way to fit into what society deems as a level of normalcy. Sometimes it takes far more courage to display your true ideation. 

According to (2 Timothy 2:15) Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, handling accurately the word of truth.

In short what others think about the words we speak should not be our concern. We should delight in the eyes of the Lord that we are bold and not ashamed to speak the truth as God presents it to us. When God has a calling on your life there is a level of expectation that goes along with that. However if we are not careful we will allow the negativity we receive from others to stifle our gift, because we would rather be accepted by those whose opinions matters not. It's amazing that we feel simply because we are christian we expect God to answer our every prayer. But when it comes time for us to honor God by being obedient and follow his instruction we are slow to move because of how others will view us. Which may speak to why some of your trials last longer than others. Just so we are clear, I am speaking from experience.

Be Blessed,
Lady 4.0